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Hello, I'm finally back hahaha ^^

Deleted all my blogposts except the wishlist & resolutions one (& my most recent blog post) because I'm a bad blogger and all the other posts were stupid. Haven't blog in over a month I'm so sorry :O Previously wanted to blog about OBS (which was a really long time ago) and my turkey trip but i guess busy-ness and lazyness got to me, whoops. Gonna blog about those 2 now + maybe some other small things (:

June Holidays have been really hectic and I was really tired so my homework is like 0% done argh. Went for my turkey trip on the first week of the june holidays from 2june - 11june. Will post only some photos here along with my itinerary (if i can even remember most of it) and the rest of the photos will be up on facebook as soon as i get over my busy and lazy schedule. Didn't blog about OBS because i thought the memories should only be kept within my group + I was (again) lazy. I'll only be blogging about the things i learnt and maybe a little events here and there.

OBS 
Everyone in my batch was forced to go except those with medical conditions. I'm usually really hyped about camps but somehow OBS got me really worried especially about the kayaking. In case no one knows yet, I went for a kayaking begineers' course in Y1 and a one star kayaking course in Y2 for guides. I personally hate the water, example swimming and kayaking and anything that we have to be in the water for. being in the water for a long time gives me really bad headaches and i hate being soaked in water. even like spas or jacuzzis or what especially if they have the really strong aroma smell i get headaches after 15-30 minutes and its horrible. I survived the Y1 course because it was actually fun but the kayaking was really tiring and i got really dizzy and was barely consciously kayaking because if i did, i would die. so i just zoned-out to pass the time lol. but on the contrary, the Y2 one was absolutely horrible. I barely survived the first day and was comtemplating if i wanted to go for the second day and call in sick instead, but i eventually decided to just push myself. So apparently we had to do this rescue drill 3 times in 3 different perspectives; the rescuer, the rescuer's assistant and the capsized victim. We were spilt in teams of 3 and my first role was the assistant which was okay with me since i only had to row and help hold the kayak + the paddles for my rescuer (which was shanice goh btw). but unfortunately on the next turn, i had to be the rescuer. now if you haven't done this before, its like your victim capsizes, then you pull their kayak onto your kayak. its really hard because their kayak is like filled with water underneath and the kayak itself is already heavy so you practically have to use one hand (you can't use two because you're in the kayak and its too far away for your other hand to be much of a use) and haul at least half of their kayak up first before you can use both hands to haul up the other half. you have to do this while being IN the kayak so you can't stand up or use any other part of your body to lift the weight. what sucked was that im weak in arm strength and the damned kayak couldn't be hauled up. even shanice (she was my assistant then) tried to help but she was too far away. in fact, most people struggled but i totally couldn't. my hand kept getting stuck between the victim's kayak and my kayak and having that amount of weight pressed on my hand is damn painful and not funny ok. furthermore the freaking instructor kept screaming at me that i should haul it up faster, even threatening that he'll give me another 5 minutes if not we have to move on and I wouldn't get the damn certificate. so obviously i was close to tears and was just crying while trying my best but he just couldn't see that I can't do it. he didn't even encourage me lor wtf. So I gave up, and didn't even want to capsize and be the victim for my team because i was too traumatized and i hated capsizing the most (before i did the rescue drill. now i hate being the rescuer the most lol) so i just didnt want to do it. another person helped my team which i was really thankful for. i think my entire team hates me LOL (btw my other teammate was ruorou). so eventually i cried (in front of 吴老师, who comforted me too) and then went home... end of story. and so after this unfortunate incident, i never wanted to kayak again and was really scared to do it in OBS because we didn't to do the rescue drill too.

So well the obs groupings came out and i was in group 2. the batch was spilt into camp 1 & camp 2 in which our schedules were different. group 1 and 2 combined a lot and we were the "special group". apparently for the other teams in camp 1, their schedule was camp 1 > camp 2 > external camp > back to camp 1 (4nights). but for us it was camp 1 > external camp > another external camp > back to camp 1. so we couldn't shower for 2 nights ?!?!?! ): some other groups also had the same schedule as us (like group 3 & 4) but then their 2nd night "external campsite" was like damn near camp 1 and it was better unlike ours asdfghjkl ): so it was really tiring and stuff but since we were special, WE DIDN'T HAVE TO DO KAYAKING. DO YOU KNOW HOW DAMNED HAPPY I WAS THEN OMG. AND WE DID RAFTING INSTEAD!! and rafting was like using lashes so the guides were damn happy lah :D so from the 1st external campsite, we rafted to some place, then walked to the second one where we met the other groups who had the same schedule but diff campsites! :D (like they also two nights external but their first external campsite was better than ours). I'm really happy about rafting because rafting was really fun and it was my favourite activity overall ^^

I cried on the first night because i missed my family and thought i was gonna die for kayaking and no one would be there to help me and peiyi had to bring me to my instructor which i cried to. this is so embarrassing lol. but well, i dont usually cry, even like when i went for STEP programme to thailand i wasn't worried about leaving my parents at all LOL. but i guess disappointing my parents after CTs got to me and I was away from all my ways of escaping stress and no one was there to hug me or anything so i was really scared :/ but OBS was really enriching i actually got to learn really memorable stuff instead of the normal "being independent" and stuff. Ruth told me to trust my teammates (the 5-8km walk thing i was scared for that after being relieved of not having to kayak) and trust that they will help me get through this tough ordeal and im not alone and things like that. so i was really encouraged and surprisingly, the walk was pretty fun and it was so comforting to see that I've really bonded with my teammates and that they actually like to hang out with me. me and my insecurities.... (hmm on second thought maybe they dont like to hang out with me afterall but whatever, i really liked their company and enjoyed it). OBS really taught to trust and to believe in my team although teamwork is not my strongest point. in fact, i dont like teamwork that much.... really happy i got to know some of the 3C people (actually they don't talk to me anymore im really sad :/) and bond more with people i dont know. i hope they give us a Y4 camp... ):

I guess i'm done with obs, and for those of you out there who are scared of being independent or at camp, I assure you that you'll miss camp after the ordeal and that no matter how weak you are, there are always people you can trust to help you and make you tougher. goodluck (: